I feel lost again…

And no not one those moments were I need a map.

I lost my mother this year and my job. I feel utterly completely disable to the point I am no longer happy and a prayer keeps me going.

I guess today pushed it for me. Just seeing her going up to the Elders being so happy to see them. Makes me think my daughter is missing a father figure. It makes me sad and lonely, these pass days staying at home with her has been great but I feel incomplete at times due to the fact I am not able to share these years with anyone. The way she lights up when she sees them makes me happy.

Knowing the rules there will never be a way to be in contact with them when they leave kind of breaks my heart.

She told me that she planted flowers with grandma.

I kinda wish I had someone… could use a hug. :/

Please come back to us. Mom I love you, we saw you the other day. Thank you for everything thank you for being there for me. God please tell me she’s okay now. Tell her that her children and grandchildren miss her. Rest in peace july 9 2014.


prob the best pug picture ever

I just need a hug.

Someone tell me its okay that its going to be alright. I hate this feeling and I am so scared I am going to loose my job.

Soo watching this with Isa!!!

I seriously needed someone today…

A shoulder, this morning was the most terrifying day in my entire life. :/

#lonely  #911  #mom  

Ugh, I hate being fucking nice.

I got by stalker/physco/ex back, no like seriously.

What the fuck I am suppose to do?

Wtf, last time I say ” noo its okay”.

#dumbass  #creeper  #afraid  #!!  

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